The Path.
Currently I’m having my mid semester break and it’s gonna
to end soon.
One week holiday remind me of those days.
Things happen unexpectedly.
I live at Ipoh when I was young till Standard 6 and move
to KL to continue my secondary school.
As a kid, it is hard for me to adapt such a big change of
environment.
I resisted not moving to KL.
No matter how stubborn I am, I can’t do anything more
when comes to my parent decision of doing that.
I just follow.
Initially, I seriously hate staying at KL.
I know the bonding between my friend and I will become
week.
But I had no choice. Life goes on.
So, I met new friend in secondary.
And I don’t know since when I become very emotional,
jealousy and etc to a point I hate everyone around me.
This feeling surrounded me till I finish SPM.
Well, although I meet the right tuition teacher to try to
help me but I’m simply just too stubborn to accept their advice.
I just listen and remember without doing any action.
After finished SPM, I started to work to get some money
on my own.
I seriously learn different things.
Learn to be tolerance, patience and etc.
And after SPM, I planned to study foundation at UTAR
because foundation just required 1 year and can directly to degree.
However, my parents do not allow me to do that. They want
me to study STPM.
I have no power of saying no to my parents because of I keep
on insist study foundation, I will end up working till old.
And another reason why I don’t want to study STPM is
because I’m totally brainwashed by people around me.
They told me STPM is hard and etc.
That’s why I am not willingly to study STPM.
But I had no choice, I have to study STPM.
Without I realize, I found great friends with me together
fight for the STPM.
It makes me no regret of study STPM.
Those memories are precious and priceless.
Well, although I didn’t get cGPA 4.00 but I still manage
to enter local university for my degree. :)
I will never forget the mix feeling when I get the offer
from UPU.
I was seriously very excited that I can enter local
university but what disappointed me was the course.
I have no idea I do choose computer science in my UPU
list.
And I get offer from that course.
Oh my goodness.
I feel like my life is full of darkness that moment.
I do seek advice from my tuition teacher and they do ask
me to give a try before I give up that course directly.
I listen my tuition teacher’s advice more than my parent.
So, I decided to give myself a try before I plan to
change course.
It is seriously very torturing at first. I still see the
darkness rather than any bright sky with rainbow.
The feeling of changing course is very strong growing
inside of me.
Slowly, day by day move on.
I start my positive way of thinking.
Last time, I love biology and study biology till form 6.
Just simply because I have the basic knowledge of
biology, I want to change course and don’t want to learn something new.
All the while, I’m telling people that I want to learn
something new and now I’m giving it up?
I struggle for my semester 1 and see the outcome whether I
can take this course or not.
And once again, I prove to myself that I actually can
make things happen!
It reminds me of those days my form 6 classmate quote: “There
is nothing impossible when comes to Meng Yee”.
Now, I decided to stay in the course and continue my
ability on the course.
And now, within the darkness, I see there is a full moon shining
brightly. :)
I feel so thankful with the path that my parent select
for me and also God that make me stay strong to go through all the pain.
감사합니다 :)
my :)
Semester 2: Problem Arise
It had been 2 weeks the class begin after semester break
during Chinese New Year.
It seems like semester break just end a blink of eyes.
Well, I am back to Kuala Terengganu quite early compare
to my roommate.
I realize that coming back early is kind an advantage
because I can take my sweet time to clean my room completely.
First week of class as what senior said, lecturer still
on their holiday mood.
Lots of class cancel.
Basically, first week are like exercise on Jalan Biawak.
Here comes the second week, looks like lecturer begin the
class.
And second week of class look like I have lots of
troublesome issue that arise just simply because of my coursemate.
Well, my course is new course so Chinese student is like
very limited edition.
Only 2 Chinese in my course which is included me.
What happen in this second week is this Chinese guy just
ran off without informing me.
It reflects how irresponsible you are.
In fact, I am same group with him for assignment.
So, what now? What am I supposed to do? He is just simply
hanging me over there and ran off.
If he told me earlier, I will prepare everything just in
case he really can change to another course, right?
And I’m sure I won’t be like so pissed off like now.
I do remember that after the semester break, I ask his confirmation
about the changing course.
He said he is not changing. So again, I believe him.
And again, he cheated me like no others business.
Well, this is not the first time I got cheated by him.
After such a great treatment from him, I feel like a dumb
now.
I being used by him as his information counter,
correcting his English, messaged him about the class, help me take attendance
when he is not in the class and etc.
I’m dumb fooled with his so talented blur skill and
hidden skills.
Anyway, I need to thanks him for treating me like this.
I am too naive.
I am not going to do the same mistake anymore.
I will treat people differently from this seconds onwards.
Life goes on.. I will stay strong to handle all the
problems on my own in this semester.
I can still live happily without you because I know I can
adapt this environment.
Thanks for the lesson anyway.
What goes around comes around...
my :)
Experienced.
Recently, my form 6 friend facing some trouble which I-don’t-know-how-to-categorize-as-what-problem.
Her problem reflected me about how was my change happen
on me.
Why I become like this?
I had totally forgotten about it till the point I want to
know why and I dig out my seriously-old-blog to find out the reason.
And yes, I found it.
It was all because of my friends that turn me into this
form.
When I was in secondary school, I was the one that get
ignore without knowing what had happened.
They just simply ignore me and let me alone.
It is not one or two times but I had experienced it for 3
times.
By that time, I’m totally like a dumb got ignored and I couldn’t
do anything because the huge group of them ignore me.
Although at the end, I was back into the group.. still
there will be changes..
It wouldn’t be the same like last time.
And from that day I got ignore, I was really enjoy to be
alone, independent, don’t like to give trouble to other peoples and understand
the theory of life.
After that change, my emotions follow the flow too.
My emotion started to change as I enter form 6.
I’m getting happier and seriously knowing what I am doing
and what should I do.
Yes, the reason why I become happier is because of my
form 6 friends are awesome.
They are fun, playful and serious at the same time.
And due to my previous experience, I didn’t have any
friendship problem among us.
I understand that as a human, we do have different types
of ranking in our charts.
Not all people will put friends as the top of their
charts.
And I know that, every one of us will have bestfriend in
our life.
Might not be me but others. We cannot take jealously to
break the friendship.
To choose to remain it or not is lies on our hands not
others.
And I had choose to remain the friendship of all my
friends, I started to overcome all the jealously.
Sometimes, I need to be the thick face to make sure we
are still keep in touch.
The reason why I do that is because in life, we need
friends to help us.
I know family is important, but there is the limit of our
family that can help us, right?
When I saw my friend struggle about this
so-called-emotion-problem-perhaps, I want to help her.
But at the same time, I want her to learn to be mature
and independent.
What is she doing is right, to protect herself but she is
making people stay far away from her.
It is the right way of doing it?
Indirectly, she is hurting herself.
I have no right to control her or decide what she supposed
to do.
Please don’t hurt yourself in such way you
so-called-protect-yourself.
my :)
Month of frustration.
People said university life is very awesome.
But why I feel so suffering?
Basically, I had headache for so many days because of
rushing assignment.
Honestly, I’m doing A to Z for this assignment
Okay, if you are a programmer, you will understand the
feeling of doing that assignment.
Well, I’m busy doing and thinking about the question 2
coding in order to finish the assignment.
I thought my group member will help me to do certain part
of the report.
Never know that none of them show up.
Well, one of my group member busy with her kokurikulum. So,
I understand.
How about the others?
Like vanish in the thin air.
At the end, I finish everything on my own.
You think what am I? Superwoman?
Did you know how much I had suffered?
Fine, end up I report to the lecturer that one of them didn’t
do a single thing.
As I said at Facebook that, I will say write report as
what I observed and not to say I’m cruel.
I am not that kind of person who let people used me and I
still keep quiet. NO!
And if she had the initiative to do, for sure she will
ask me earlier and not the night before the submission!
What you expect me to give you work when I almost done?
Not to forget to mention, I won’t so easy to give you
free marks when you didn’t do a single thing!
There is no free lunch in this world, understand?
It will be not fair to others member too.
Although you are my friend but I will still report. Who cares?
Already no one care about my lack of sleep condition when
doing this assignment, you think I will care about your assignment marks?
Obviously no, right?
Not I want to make myself to be this cruel, but the
situation force me to do so.
Why?
Because my course mates are moron!
A bunch of moron!
I don’t know why there is no quality in this course and
weird part is.. still can study degree.
Maybe this is the different between open-minded people
and close minded people.
Never accept other’s opinion and live on their small
world.
Never think of changing their life after all.
God, please bless me to deal with all the moronic people.
It is torturing enough with a bunch of moron around me.
my :)
UMT Tour. :)
After all, the orientation finally officially ended.
Well, today the Chinese society has this UMT tour.
Before the tour start, my senior from Cochrane knows that
I don’t know mandirian and asked people who don’t know mandirian come out and
sit one side.
I thought I was the only one who doesn’t know mandirian.
By the way, I’m not 100% banana.
I still can manage to listen and speak mandirian.
So, my senior asked me to sit to another place with a guy
who is totally banana.
At the end, during the tour I become a translator for
this guy.
This guy named Daniel, and after becoming his translator.
He asked for my phone number, Facebook and Twitter.
I was so shocked because we just know each other for
about not even a day.
If I gave him my number also no harm since I know that we
are not going to meet every day and perhaps we forget each other soon, right?
Whatever it is, the main concern was about the tour.
Unexpectedly, the university is not as big as I thought.
Hopefully, I can adapt the environment over here. :)
my :)
Orientation week!
My life totally doomed by my course.
As you know, I already seriously dislike my course and
never know that my course only have 2 Chinese included me.
Limited edition.
He gave me a very bad impression for the first time.
Although he is tall but he looks blur to me.
Like haven’t wakes up yet.
Hopefully, he is not like that or else I will definitely
vomiting blood and confirm of changing course without any doubt.
Orientation as usual, speech.. speech… speech.. and more
speech..
I have to wake up early the morning and reach room late
night.
When is this going to over? Sigh.
my :)
UMT!
Today was the day all the September intake students need
to register.
Firstly, I need to go to Dewan Sultan Mizan for register,
get the room key and matrix card.
After that, I need to go to the hostel with UMT buses
that they provide.
Never forget how horrible is that.
It is like a war.
Oh my goodness.
Luckily, I still manage to get into the bus and heading
to the hostel.
I was lucky enough that my hostel is nearby the gate so
that at least I can easily carry my heavy luggage.
And also facilitator helps me to carry luggage. Thank you
very much. :)
As I reach my room, 2 of my roommates already had done
most of the thing.
I thought I was the earliest one, but too bad I’m not.
So, I didn’t manage to get the bed that I one.
I’m okay with it, just my parents dislike it.
Whatsoever.
The most shocking is that one of my roommates knows my
name!
How can she manage to do that?
After I had done my parts, 3 of us were in the seriously
awkward situation.
As you know, I seriously dislike this kind of situation.
At the end, my roommate; Jenny comes up with one topic
regarding with the form that we need to fill in to submit to the UMT staff.
Then, we need to prepare for the orientation MJM for a
week!
It must be those boring speech.
Sigh.
As usual, orientation must come with speech. There are
like package!
my :)
The Path.
Currently I’m having my mid semester break and it’s gonna
to end soon.
One week holiday remind me of those days.
Things happen unexpectedly.
I live at Ipoh when I was young till Standard 6 and move
to KL to continue my secondary school.
As a kid, it is hard for me to adapt such a big change of
environment.
I resisted not moving to KL.
No matter how stubborn I am, I can’t do anything more
when comes to my parent decision of doing that.
I just follow.
Initially, I seriously hate staying at KL.
I know the bonding between my friend and I will become
week.
But I had no choice. Life goes on.
So, I met new friend in secondary.
And I don’t know since when I become very emotional,
jealousy and etc to a point I hate everyone around me.
This feeling surrounded me till I finish SPM.
Well, although I meet the right tuition teacher to try to
help me but I’m simply just too stubborn to accept their advice.
I just listen and remember without doing any action.
After finished SPM, I started to work to get some money
on my own.
I seriously learn different things.
Learn to be tolerance, patience and etc.
And after SPM, I planned to study foundation at UTAR
because foundation just required 1 year and can directly to degree.
However, my parents do not allow me to do that. They want
me to study STPM.
I have no power of saying no to my parents because of I keep
on insist study foundation, I will end up working till old.
And another reason why I don’t want to study STPM is
because I’m totally brainwashed by people around me.
They told me STPM is hard and etc.
That’s why I am not willingly to study STPM.
But I had no choice, I have to study STPM.
Without I realize, I found great friends with me together
fight for the STPM.
It makes me no regret of study STPM.
Those memories are precious and priceless.
Well, although I didn’t get cGPA 4.00 but I still manage
to enter local university for my degree. :)
I will never forget the mix feeling when I get the offer
from UPU.
I was seriously very excited that I can enter local
university but what disappointed me was the course.
I have no idea I do choose computer science in my UPU
list.
And I get offer from that course.
Oh my goodness.
I feel like my life is full of darkness that moment.
I do seek advice from my tuition teacher and they do ask
me to give a try before I give up that course directly.
I listen my tuition teacher’s advice more than my parent.
So, I decided to give myself a try before I plan to
change course.
It is seriously very torturing at first. I still see the
darkness rather than any bright sky with rainbow.
The feeling of changing course is very strong growing
inside of me.
Slowly, day by day move on.
I start my positive way of thinking.
Last time, I love biology and study biology till form 6.
Just simply because I have the basic knowledge of
biology, I want to change course and don’t want to learn something new.
All the while, I’m telling people that I want to learn
something new and now I’m giving it up?
I struggle for my semester 1 and see the outcome whether I
can take this course or not.
And once again, I prove to myself that I actually can
make things happen!
It reminds me of those days my form 6 classmate quote: “There
is nothing impossible when comes to Meng Yee”.
Now, I decided to stay in the course and continue my
ability on the course.
And now, within the darkness, I see there is a full moon shining
brightly. :)
I feel so thankful with the path that my parent select
for me and also God that make me stay strong to go through all the pain.
감사합니다 :)
my :)
Semester 2: Problem Arise
It had been 2 weeks the class begin after semester break
during Chinese New Year.
It seems like semester break just end a blink of eyes.
Well, I am back to Kuala Terengganu quite early compare
to my roommate.
I realize that coming back early is kind an advantage
because I can take my sweet time to clean my room completely.
First week of class as what senior said, lecturer still
on their holiday mood.
Lots of class cancel.
Basically, first week are like exercise on Jalan Biawak.
Here comes the second week, looks like lecturer begin the
class.
And second week of class look like I have lots of
troublesome issue that arise just simply because of my coursemate.
Well, my course is new course so Chinese student is like
very limited edition.
Only 2 Chinese in my course which is included me.
What happen in this second week is this Chinese guy just
ran off without informing me.
It reflects how irresponsible you are.
In fact, I am same group with him for assignment.
So, what now? What am I supposed to do? He is just simply
hanging me over there and ran off.
If he told me earlier, I will prepare everything just in
case he really can change to another course, right?
And I’m sure I won’t be like so pissed off like now.
I do remember that after the semester break, I ask his confirmation
about the changing course.
He said he is not changing. So again, I believe him.
And again, he cheated me like no others business.
Well, this is not the first time I got cheated by him.
After such a great treatment from him, I feel like a dumb
now.
I being used by him as his information counter,
correcting his English, messaged him about the class, help me take attendance
when he is not in the class and etc.
I’m dumb fooled with his so talented blur skill and
hidden skills.
Anyway, I need to thanks him for treating me like this.
I am too naive.
I am not going to do the same mistake anymore.
I will treat people differently from this seconds onwards.
Life goes on.. I will stay strong to handle all the
problems on my own in this semester.
I can still live happily without you because I know I can
adapt this environment.
Thanks for the lesson anyway.
What goes around comes around...
my :)
Experienced.
Recently, my form 6 friend facing some trouble which I-don’t-know-how-to-categorize-as-what-problem.
Her problem reflected me about how was my change happen
on me.
Why I become like this?
I had totally forgotten about it till the point I want to
know why and I dig out my seriously-old-blog to find out the reason.
And yes, I found it.
It was all because of my friends that turn me into this
form.
When I was in secondary school, I was the one that get
ignore without knowing what had happened.
They just simply ignore me and let me alone.
It is not one or two times but I had experienced it for 3
times.
By that time, I’m totally like a dumb got ignored and I couldn’t
do anything because the huge group of them ignore me.
Although at the end, I was back into the group.. still
there will be changes..
It wouldn’t be the same like last time.
And from that day I got ignore, I was really enjoy to be
alone, independent, don’t like to give trouble to other peoples and understand
the theory of life.
After that change, my emotions follow the flow too.
My emotion started to change as I enter form 6.
I’m getting happier and seriously knowing what I am doing
and what should I do.
Yes, the reason why I become happier is because of my
form 6 friends are awesome.
They are fun, playful and serious at the same time.
And due to my previous experience, I didn’t have any
friendship problem among us.
I understand that as a human, we do have different types
of ranking in our charts.
Not all people will put friends as the top of their
charts.
And I know that, every one of us will have bestfriend in
our life.
Might not be me but others. We cannot take jealously to
break the friendship.
To choose to remain it or not is lies on our hands not
others.
And I had choose to remain the friendship of all my
friends, I started to overcome all the jealously.
Sometimes, I need to be the thick face to make sure we
are still keep in touch.
The reason why I do that is because in life, we need
friends to help us.
I know family is important, but there is the limit of our
family that can help us, right?
When I saw my friend struggle about this
so-called-emotion-problem-perhaps, I want to help her.
But at the same time, I want her to learn to be mature
and independent.
What is she doing is right, to protect herself but she is
making people stay far away from her.
It is the right way of doing it?
Indirectly, she is hurting herself.
I have no right to control her or decide what she supposed
to do.
Please don’t hurt yourself in such way you
so-called-protect-yourself.
my :)
Month of frustration.
People said university life is very awesome.
But why I feel so suffering?
Basically, I had headache for so many days because of
rushing assignment.
Honestly, I’m doing A to Z for this assignment
Okay, if you are a programmer, you will understand the
feeling of doing that assignment.
Well, I’m busy doing and thinking about the question 2
coding in order to finish the assignment.
I thought my group member will help me to do certain part
of the report.
Never know that none of them show up.
Well, one of my group member busy with her kokurikulum. So,
I understand.
How about the others?
Like vanish in the thin air.
At the end, I finish everything on my own.
You think what am I? Superwoman?
Did you know how much I had suffered?
Fine, end up I report to the lecturer that one of them didn’t
do a single thing.
As I said at Facebook that, I will say write report as
what I observed and not to say I’m cruel.
I am not that kind of person who let people used me and I
still keep quiet. NO!
And if she had the initiative to do, for sure she will
ask me earlier and not the night before the submission!
What you expect me to give you work when I almost done?
Not to forget to mention, I won’t so easy to give you
free marks when you didn’t do a single thing!
There is no free lunch in this world, understand?
It will be not fair to others member too.
Although you are my friend but I will still report. Who cares?
Already no one care about my lack of sleep condition when
doing this assignment, you think I will care about your assignment marks?
Obviously no, right?
Not I want to make myself to be this cruel, but the
situation force me to do so.
Why?
Because my course mates are moron!
A bunch of moron!
I don’t know why there is no quality in this course and
weird part is.. still can study degree.
Maybe this is the different between open-minded people
and close minded people.
Never accept other’s opinion and live on their small
world.
Never think of changing their life after all.
God, please bless me to deal with all the moronic people.
It is torturing enough with a bunch of moron around me.
my :)
UMT Tour. :)
After all, the orientation finally officially ended.
Well, today the Chinese society has this UMT tour.
Before the tour start, my senior from Cochrane knows that
I don’t know mandirian and asked people who don’t know mandirian come out and
sit one side.
I thought I was the only one who doesn’t know mandirian.
By the way, I’m not 100% banana.
I still can manage to listen and speak mandirian.
So, my senior asked me to sit to another place with a guy
who is totally banana.
At the end, during the tour I become a translator for
this guy.
This guy named Daniel, and after becoming his translator.
He asked for my phone number, Facebook and Twitter.
I was so shocked because we just know each other for
about not even a day.
If I gave him my number also no harm since I know that we
are not going to meet every day and perhaps we forget each other soon, right?
Whatever it is, the main concern was about the tour.
Unexpectedly, the university is not as big as I thought.
Hopefully, I can adapt the environment over here. :)
my :)
Orientation week!
My life totally doomed by my course.
As you know, I already seriously dislike my course and
never know that my course only have 2 Chinese included me.
Limited edition.
He gave me a very bad impression for the first time.
Although he is tall but he looks blur to me.
Like haven’t wakes up yet.
Hopefully, he is not like that or else I will definitely
vomiting blood and confirm of changing course without any doubt.
Orientation as usual, speech.. speech… speech.. and more
speech..
I have to wake up early the morning and reach room late
night.
When is this going to over? Sigh.
my :)
UMT!
Today was the day all the September intake students need
to register.
Firstly, I need to go to Dewan Sultan Mizan for register,
get the room key and matrix card.
After that, I need to go to the hostel with UMT buses
that they provide.
Never forget how horrible is that.
It is like a war.
Oh my goodness.
Luckily, I still manage to get into the bus and heading
to the hostel.
I was lucky enough that my hostel is nearby the gate so
that at least I can easily carry my heavy luggage.
And also facilitator helps me to carry luggage. Thank you
very much. :)
As I reach my room, 2 of my roommates already had done
most of the thing.
I thought I was the earliest one, but too bad I’m not.
So, I didn’t manage to get the bed that I one.
I’m okay with it, just my parents dislike it.
Whatsoever.
The most shocking is that one of my roommates knows my
name!
How can she manage to do that?
After I had done my parts, 3 of us were in the seriously
awkward situation.
As you know, I seriously dislike this kind of situation.
At the end, my roommate; Jenny comes up with one topic
regarding with the form that we need to fill in to submit to the UMT staff.
Then, we need to prepare for the orientation MJM for a
week!
It must be those boring speech.
Sigh.
As usual, orientation must come with speech. There are
like package!
my :)
